Description
Producer: Rifan Kalbuadi
Mastering Engineer: Ivan Gojaya
Mixing Engineer: Ivan Gojaya
Composer: Ashilla Zahrantiara
Composer: Rifan Kalbuadi
Composer: Hijruddin Marlin
Lyricist: Ashilla Zahrantiara
Lyricist: Rifan Kalbuadi
Lyricist: Hijruddin Marlin
Arranger: Rifan Kalbuadi
Lyrics and translation
Original
Kata-kata yang kau ucapkan kepadaku terus kuputar ulang dalam pikiranku.
Dari yang kau bilang aku tak berharga sampai kau ancam kau bisa hilang rasa.
Ha-ah, ha-ah, ha-ah.
Kucoba jalani hari dengan ketakutan aku akan salah lagi.
Setiap gerakku coba hati-hati, jaga agar kau tak marah lagi.
Takutku tak bisa sesuai maumu.
Sampai aku ragu.
Seburuk itukah diriku sampai kau merubahku?
Bersikeras hancurkanku sampai tak lagi kukenali siapa diri ini.
Kau selalu bilang semua ini kulakukan untuk kebaikanmu.
Dan merendahkanku menjadi caramu 'tuk buatku hancur lebih dulu agar ku bangkit jadi orang yang baru.
Dan aku pun ragu.
Seburuk itukah diriku sampai kau merubahku?
Apa memang ku tak sebaik yang aku pikirkan selama ini?
Egois dan sombong dan tak bisa hati-hati.
Sifatku buatmu kecewa berkali-kali.
Dan yang kau lakukan buat aku menyadari.
Mungkin memang harus hancur dulu 'tuk menjadi lebih baik lagi.
Dan apa bila kau tak ada, jujur ku 'kan kehilangan arah.
English translation
I keep replaying the words you said to me in my mind.
From you saying I'm worthless to you threatening that you'll lose your feelings.
Ha-ah, ha-ah, ha-ah.
I try to live the day with the fear that I will make a mistake again.
I try to be careful with every move, so that you don't get angry again.
I'm afraid I can't do what you want.
Until I doubt it.
How bad was I that you changed me?
Insisting on destroying me until I no longer recognize who I am.
You always said I did all this for your good.
And putting me down is your way of destroying me first so that I can rise up to be a new person.
And I also doubt it.
How bad was I that you changed me?
Am I really not as good as I thought all this time?
Selfish and arrogant and unable to be careful.
My nature has disappointed you many times.
And what you did made me realize.
Maybe you have to break down first to become better.
And if you weren't there, honestly I would lose my way.