Survivors Guilt

Couldn't move home 'cause of apartheid.

Barely met my sister 'cause apartheid.

Hardly met my brother 'cause apartheid.

Then I got a message that my dog died, but that's a different story, different archive.

Even though it killed me, it's not mines to tell, but my publicist told me it's mines to sell, and they still question me, why I rebel. I buy 'em what they want 'cause that's survivor's guilt.

I even paid her bail, I'm not built for this, 'cause tonight she got arrested, showed me pictures of her son.

She was fucking on the homie, couldn't leave that kid alone. That's that single mother child in me.

I was all good, they were growing up in poverty. I was on holidays, cosplaying a kid from the township.

Show my white privilege, I bought a hundred ounces.

Went to Mahosini, man, I still can't pronounce it.

My ba show me the lifestyle, tricks of the trade, that's -when Velvet got me.

-Survivor's guilt.

Survivor's guilt.

Survivor's guilt.

Survivor's -guilt.

-I buy 'em what they want 'cause that's survivor's guilt.

Raw emotions, mixed with Hennessy and pride.

My father lost his innocence through genocide, and I grew up on Easy Street.

I never seen my homies die, I never seen my homies killed, seen all my homies cry.

See, my birthright and my siblings were not the same, so that distance between us always remains.

Decades in, trying to bridge the gap. Junior said, "You're just lucky, simple as that. "

Ooh,

Junior said, "You're just lucky, simple as that.

" Junior said, "You're just lucky, can't stand the fact.

" Junior said, "You're just lucky, that's where I'm at, that's where I'm at. "

I buy 'em what they want 'cause that's survivor's guilt.

I buy 'em what they want 'cause that's survivor's guilt.

Survivor's guilt.

Survivor's guilt.

Survivor's guilt.

Survivor's -guilt.

-I buy 'em what they want 'cause that's survivor's guilt.