Living With It

Original

I remember where we were when you said it

And I'll never forget it

I remember everything about our hotel rooms

With the double-locked doors in between

And how I couldn't breathe when you left

Filled with a mixture of thrill and regret and guilt and desire

The way you talked to me was wild and true

That half-smile and that glow in you

Your faded blue wagon, your steely-eyed stare

Your signature salt and pepper hair

You said, "Is this the house?"

I said, "Yeah, that's me right there"

But I didn't get out

Maybe I'm just better at living with it than you are

But I'm the one crying in my car

Telling you to go when I want you to stay

Maybe I'm getting in my own way

Or maybe I'm too afraid to throw it all away

I remember where we were when you said it

And I'll never forget it

I remember everything about our whispered

Calls when everyone else was asleep

Disarmingly honest with those weathered features

You said, "You know I love you, right?"

And you reached for your t-shirt

I still have your number and I'll never delete it

Do you still have mine?

Maybe I'm just better at living with it than you are

But I'm the one crying in my car

Telling you to go when I want you to stay

Maybe I'm getting in my own way

Or maybe I'm too afraid

Maybe I'm just better at living with it than you are

But I'm the one crying in my car

Telling you to go when I want you to stay

Maybe I'm getting in my own way

Or maybe I'm too afraid to throw it all away