Forgive Me

I ain't seen pops in a minute. I feel like a part of me missin'.

The part that I never had. Why you think that I started sinnin'?

Mum tellin' me that I gotta rekindle, I'm findin' it hard to go listen.

'Cause I'm like, "If it's not broken, why would I fix it? " Dad had an idea, mumsy pitched it.

Like, look, he's in prison. He needs you on a visit. I'm torn in three, head, heart, and spirit.

'Cause they tellin' me things, but they all thinkin' different.

I'm young, ain't into forgivin', got no love left, I've reached my limit.

And I don't react for no reason. It's all cause and effect.

I was showin' him love, never got none back, so my heart on E, emotional debt. At age fifteen, emotional wreck. I was famous.

Overthinkin', I was lost in my head. Let me tell you why.

Dealin' with pressure the whole of my life. They call me potential, I gotta live up to.

It ain't easy when the limit the sky. High. I was smokin' weed, tryna clear my mind.

Every dream I had, I lost that sight. When you live in the dark, you don't see light.

But trust I know 'bout life. I know 'bout struggle, I know 'bout strife.

I know about bein' a person everyone wanna be, but I just wanna be them.

Every summer, got shipped out the ends. My childhood spent on set. Now you see why man ain't got friends.

Imagine bein' center of attention and someone's tryna get your attention.

Half of their life by them you're neglected. Ain't wanna get to know me, no incentive.

I was callin' your phone, never got no reception.

Only pic that I got of us is me in reception. Now a man wanna know me. I should be makin' exceptions.

The tables turned, but this ain't redemption.

Is it a crime if I say I was glad he got sentenced? 'Cause now we can sit and reflect it.

And I done the same, so we get to connectin'. 'Cause I'm learnin' to be forgiven. When mumsy speak, I listen.

She sat me down, said, "Life's too short, shouldn't be holdin' distance.

" I got a way of blockin' out people, act like they never existed.

But when she told me that, just know that my mindset shifted. Overthinkin'. Why do I overthink things?

What if they actually want what's best? This manah can't see what they thinkin'.

Great minds actin' alike. What you thinkin'? What I'm thinkin'.

Sneak me in front of my face with the two eyes that I blink if I need some space, so I might get-