I Sit In Parks

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I sit in parks

It breaks my heart

'Cause I see just how far I am from the things that I want

Dad brought the picnic

Mom brought the sunscreen

Two kids are laughing and crying on red swings

We look about the same age

But we don't have same Saturdays

Did I miss it?

By now is it a lucid dream?

Is it my fault for chasing things, a body clock?

Doesn't wait for

I did the damn tour

It's what I wanted, what I got

I spun around and then I stopped and wonder

If I missed the mark

So, I sit in parks

Sunglasses dark and I

Hit the vape, hallucinate a nursery with Noah's Ark

They lay on a blanket

And goddamn it, he loves her

I wonder if she wants my freedom

Like I want to be a mother

But Rolling Stone says I'm on the right road

So, I refill my Lexapro

Thinking

Did I miss it?

By now is it a lucid dream?

Is it my fault for chasing things, a body clock?

Doesn't wait for

I did the damn tour

It's what I wanted, what I got

I spun around and then I stopped and wonder

If I missed the mark

So, I sit in parks

Checking benchmarks

Tarryn's due in June

The album's due in March