Description
Sometimes a breakup sounds not like an ending, but like an echo - long, sticky, impossible to escape even in silence. Every word of this song carries the weight of unspoken words and attempts to pretend that everything is under control. Love here does not collapse suddenly, it slowly crumbles away, like plaster from old walls, where traces of happiness are still visible. And that's why it's especially painful - because no one shouts, no one accuses, they just leave, leaving the other to deal with ghosts on the phone and their own shadow.
Lyrics and translation
Original
Lo tau gak hari ini hari apa?
Lo gak tau kan? Karena lo tuh sibuk terus kerja mikirin masa depan.
Yang bahkan gue sendiri aja gak yakin ada gue di dalamnya.
Hari ini hari anniversary kita, dan lo lupa. Lo gak ada chat, gak ada kabar, gak ada apa-apa.
Gue ngerti lo punya mimpi. Gue ngerti lo capek. Tapi kenapa harus gue yang selalu ngertiin lo?
Your photo's still living in my phone Like a ghost that's never really gone I'm stuck between forgetting and holding on Why'd we keep on pushing till it broke?
Was the day made just some kind of joke?
Now I hear your name and I start to choke
If that's what you want, I will get away from here And you won't say goodbye
Just make me your stepping stone, then walk on your own Please don't cry
Why'd we let it fall apart like this?
Was it worth saying every moment we missed?
Now I flinch when I hear your name I still replay how you let me pour
All my fears on your scars of what we swore Then you walked away through the gate you tore
If that's what you want, I will get away from here And you won't say goodbye
Just make me your stepping stone, then walk on your own Don't be shy
Fall into harm Bring the last words, no sleep Your name still hurts Heart digging into deep If there's still hope
I swear I won't let go
One last breath One kiss before you go
I said goodbye
Banyak sekali kebahagiaan yang pernah kita ukir di sini.
Tapi seakan-akan tertutup satu noda kecil yang kita anggap tidak sangat besar di depan matamu.
Aku tidak sepertimu. Dan aku juga tidak akan pernah menjadi sepertimu.
Dan ironisnya, hal yang paling kita takuti yaitu tasbih dan notario, bukan hal yang akan benar-benar memisahkan kita.
Dan kita juga tidak akan dipisahkan oleh kematian.
Dulu aku pernah berkata padamu, jika suatu saat kita berpisah, setidaknya banyak pelajaran yang bisa kita ambil dalam Tuhan ini.
Dan menjadikan kita bersikap lebih dewasa.
Terima kasih telah membuatku besar.
Dan terima kasih telah membuatku tangguh.
Dan menunjukkanku apa itu rasa sakit.
Dan menjadikanku seperti sekarang ini.
Karena sesungguhnya kita sedang tidak baik-baik saja.
Karena sesungguhnya, kita sedang sangat tidak baik-baik saja.
English translation
Do you know what day it is today?
You don't know, right? Because you're busy working and thinking about the future.
Even I'm not sure I'm in it.
Today is our anniversary, and you forgot. You have no chat, no news, nothing.
I know you have a dream. I know you're tired. But why do I have to always understand you?
Your photo's still alive in my phone Like a ghost that's never really gone I'm stuck between forgetting and holding on Why'd we keep on pushing until it broke?
Was the day made just some kind of joke?
Now I hear your name and I start to choke
If that's what you want, I will get away from here And you won't say goodbye
Just make me your stepping stone, then walk on your own Please don't cry
Why'd we let it fall apart like this?
Was it worth saying every moment we missed?
Now I flinch when I hear your name I still replay how you let me pour
All my fears on your scars of what we swore Then you walked away through the gate you came to
If that's what you want, I will get away from here And you won't say goodbye
Just make me your stepping stone, then walk on your own. Don't be shy
Fall into harm Bring the last words, no sleep Your name still hurts Heart digging into deep If there's still hope
I swear I won't let go
One last breath One kiss before you go
I said goodbye
We have created a lot of happiness here.
But it's as if it's covered by a small stain that we don't think is very big in front of your eyes.
I'm not like you. And I will never be like you either.
And ironically, the things we fear most are prayer beads and notarios, not the things that will truly separate us.
And we will not be separated by death either.
I once said to you, if one day we part, at least there are many lessons we can take from this God.
And makes us act more mature.
Thank you for making me big.
And thank you for making me tough.
And showed me what pain is.
And made me who I am today.
Because actually we are not fine.
Because actually, we are not very good.