More songs by James Arthur
Description
Sometimes the path to your dream doesn't look like a staircase going up, but like a fire escape going down - with screams, bruises, and a couple of lost illusions. But then it suddenly turns out that this is exactly how you make your way to your true self. The song sounds like the moment when the noise in your head finally stops, and you can hear your heart beating not out of fear, but out of pride. There is no heroism here - only honest fatigue and the quiet happiness of a person who has finally managed to become who they promised to be. Even if you had to be the worst version of yourself first in order to reach the best.
Lyrics and translation
Original
This is all I ever wanted
All I ever thought I'd be
It's the only place I truly feel
As though I can be me
But the way I arrived
It was overnight
I've been on my worst behaviour
Been on my worst behaviour
If only I had been like this
Now I can hold my heart in a fist
And all the voices leave
I can finally put it on my sleeve
Oh, if only they'd really seen it
Maybe they would finally believe me
When I say I've won
And my father gets to see his son
That he can feel proud of
He can feel proud of
He's proud of me
This is all I ever wanted
All I ever thought I'd be
But the way that I behaved
Could have seen quite the contrary
I felt all the lives
They're out of sight
I've been on my worst behaviour
Been on my worst behaviour
If only I had been like this
Now I can hold my heart in a fist
And all the voices leave
I can finally put it on my sleeve
Oh, if only they'd really seen it
Maybe they would finally believe me
When I say I've won
And my mother gets to see her son
That she can feel proud of
She can feel proud of
She's proud of me
She's proud of me
Proud of me
Proud of me
They're proud of me
She's proud of me
She's proud of
They're proud of
They're proud of
They're proud of me
They're proud of me
They're proud of me
She's proud of me
They're proud of me
If only I had been like this
Now I can hold my heart in a fist
And all the voices leave
I can finally put it on my sleeve
Oh, if only they'd really seen it
Maybe they would finally believe me
When I say I've won
And my family gets to see why
That they can feel proud of
They can feel proud of
They can feel proud of
They're proud of me