More songs by Gracie Abrams
Description
Once upon a time, all of this was probably love. Or something very similar - with nighttime conversations, saving each other from boredom, and the illusion of eternal understanding. And then the process of growing up began: with clarity, where pain is no longer a tragedy, but simply a consequence of the natural selection of feelings.
Now there is no regret, only pure acceptance. When you can admit that yes, it was good, but it's not necessary anymore. When sadness comes not from loss, but from recognition - of your former self, naive, ready to save another from their own darkness.
It sounds like the inner monologue of someone who has finally stopped justifying their own survival. And even if somewhere deep down a memory still tugs at you, there is still only one thing left: a calm, mature indifference.
Lyrics and translation
Original
I swear to God, I haven't thought of you in ages
I've lived a lot, I've loved and lost, I've let the rain in
I'm pretty sure, I mean I've heard, you never faced it
I understand, I changed your plans, I had to, baby
And all I did was right by me, I heard that almost killed you
Well, I knew it, I know you, I called it
And I think that you earnestly have waited on apologies
But I can't pretend that I'm sorry
When I'm not sorry
So, aren't you sad about the fact that you can't write me?
I cheered the loudest for you when you won your trophies
I'm on the ground, how's the weather on your planet?
An empty house, the noise is loud, it's how you stand it
And don't you feel alone at night or sorta kinda daily?
Well, I knew it, I know you, I called it
And it makes me wanna cry sometimes, but don't you know the deal now?
Well, I just can't pretend that I'm sorry
When I'm not sorry
And we don't even know each other now
And I'd blow all my plans if you'd meet me out
We could talk, we could get it, we could both calm down
Down (down, down)
It all changed for me and I told you (down)
(Down, down)
You had the wrong idea about me (down)
(Down, down)
And all I ever did was consider you (down)
(Down, down)
Until all I could do was consider me (down)
(Down) down, (down) down
I was your entertainment from a dark place
(Down) down, (down) down
You don't know how to step outside yourself
(Down) down, (down) down
It's not my fault you can't sit with the hard thing
(Down) down, (down) down
You really thought you would get what you wanted
(Down) down, (down) down
You really thought you would get what you wanted
(Down) down, (down) down
(Down) down, (down) down