More songs by Taylor Swift
Description
There is a feeling like standing outside someone else's house in the rain. No one seems to be chasing you, but inside you're already soaked to the skin. And all you can squeeze out of yourself is not excuses, not a pompous “I'm sorry,” but simply, “I'm trying.” Without a period, because a period sounds too confident for those who are just learning to breathe again.
Here, past victories rust away, the sparkling “wheels” of the past. Here, the mind is not a lifeline, but a weight on your feet. And yet, a person remains - with a trembling voice, confusion, and the tiny courage to appear at the threshold. Because sometimes the most honest thing you can do is not to show off your strength, but to admit: “At least I'm trying.”
Lyrics and translation
Original
I've been having a hard time adjusting
I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting
I didn't know if you'd care if I came back
I have a lot of regrets about that
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout
Could've followed my fears all the way down
And maybe I don't quite know what to say
But I'm here in your doorway
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
They told me all of my cages were mental
So I got wasted like all my potential
And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I have a lot of regrets about that
I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere
Fell behind all my classmates, and I ended up here
Pouring out my heart to a stranger
But I didn't pour the whiskey
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying
And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound
It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you
You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town
And I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
(And maybe I don't quite know what to say)
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying