More songs by Charli xcx
Description
This song conveys a sense of inner turmoil, when thoughts are louder than any external sounds. It is as if life is a fairground, while inside there is a closed warehouse filled with boxes of anxieties, doubts, and strange desires. The melody draws you in like fog after rain, and the words cut like glass: there is shame, anger, and a desperate attempt to understand who is looking back from the mirror. It all sounds like a confession at speed - fragile, nervous, but so honest that it is impossible to look away.
Lyrics and translation
Original
I don't wanna share the space. I don't wanna force a smile.
This homegirl taps my insecurities. Don't know if it's real or if I'm spiraling.
One voice tells me that they're love.
George says I'm just paranoid. Says, "You just don't see it, you're so naive.
" I'm embarrassed to have it but need the sympathy 'cause I couldn't even be you if I tried.
I'm opposite, I'm on the other side.
I feel all these feelings, I can't control. Oh no, don't know.
Why all this sympathy is just a knife?
Why I can't even grip my teeth and lie?
I feel all these feelings, I can't control. Oh no, don't know. Why
I wanna buy a gun? Why
I wanna shoot myself? Volatile, at war with my dialogue.
I'd say that there was a God if they could stop this wild voice tearing me apart. I'm so apprehensive now.
Don't wanna see you backstage at my boyfriend's show. Fingers crossed behind my back, I hope they break up quick 'cause
I couldn't even be you if I tried.
I'm opposite, I'm on the other side.
I feel all these feelings, I can't control. Oh no, don't know.
Why all this sympathy is just a knife?
Why I can't even grip my teeth and lie?
I feel all these feelings, I can't control.
All this sympathy is just a knife.
All this sympathy is just a knife. All this sympathy is just a knife.
Yeah, all this sympathy is just a knife. Oh no, oh no. Why is all this sympathy a fucking knife?
Yeah, all this sympathy is just a knife. Couldn't even be you if
I tried. Oh no, oh no, uh.