More songs by Meet Me @ The Altar
Description
It's as if somewhere in the darkness, the screen of an old phone is lit up, and fingers mindlessly scroll through messages, unable to bring themselves to delete them. The sounds are nervous, slightly breaking off, as if the voice is trembling and trying to sound calm. There is a lot of fatigue here: from one's own mistakes, from the eternal “I knew it” and from attempts to stay steady when you are already falling.
But along with this, there is a strange, fragile courage to say out loud what is usually hidden behind memes and jokes. To admit to dependence, to jealousy, to the fact that “yes, I'm hurting, and yes, I need you.” This directness sounds like a challenge to oneself: let the voice tremble, let the tears fall on the floor, but at least it's honest. The music bursts in and beats like a heart that seems to have grown accustomed to pain, but still hasn't given up.
Photographer: Lee Ann Rogers
Editing: Edith Victoria
Guitar: Kaylee Sang
Label: LAB Records
Lyrics and translation
Original
Oh God, I've been here before
Nothing I can't handle
Tired of coming up short
To everyone you know
Don't wanna think all night long
But I got some time to kill
Hoping that I'll crack the code
And be the one you want
I can't eat, can't sleep
So full of misery
In case you even give a shit
It's all your fault that life's been difficult
I'm crying on the floor, is there a bright side?
I know you swore we're better off alone
That I'm just not the one, fuck it, I'll let it show
I'm straight up needy
Straight up needy
Straight up
Yeah, lookin' back, I could find
So many clear signs
Guess I ignored 'em, it's fine
(This is fine)
No, I regret it of course
It was all for nothing
My heart's so torn, I feel sore
What did you do to me?
Still can't eat, can't sleep
Still full of jealousy
The pain no one could comprehend
It's all your fault that life's been difficult
I'm crying on the floor, is there a bright side?
I know you swore we're better off alone
That I'm just not the one, fuck it, I'll let it show
I'm straight up needy
Straight up needy
Straight up needy
Oh God, I've been here before
No, this ain't new to me
Straight up