More songs by Lodos E.B
More songs by Emar Hoca
Description
Thoughts race around in circles, as if someone had started an eternal spinner in my head and forgotten to turn it off. Everything - enemies in the shadows and my own doubts - hides around the corner like school bullies, ready to scare me at the most inopportune moment. I want to break free, run away to the sea, to the salty winds of the Aegean, but my steps still get stuck in that inner math where x and y never converge.
It's like the diary of a person who thinks too much and looks too honestly in the mirror. A cigarette in your pocket, scraps of words on a napkin, a doctor's diagnosis that's more like advice to “let go a little” - and yet the restless rhythm marches on. The track seems to turn anxiety into a forced march: tedious, exhausting, but so recognizable.
Lyrics, composition, and video by Lodos E.B
Music, mixing, and mastering by Emar Hoca
Lyrics and translation
Original
Günlerin iş gibi bir direniş mi ki bu? Zaman aktı nehir gibi.
Hey! İzi kaldı zehir gibi içinde umudum hep kanamış gibi.
Hep kara kış gibi bir yakarış mı ki bu?
Ölüm aldı meleklerimi. Hey! Yağlandı bileklerim.
Bulamam huzuru içinde denklemin. Kafamda delice düşünce bu sıra. Koşarım ama ben varamam huzura.
Delice düşünce kafamda şu sıra. Yürürüm yine de varamam huzura.
Varamam huzura ben hiçbir konuda. Çetin bir savaş bu, sakın ha uyuma. Hasımlar pusuda, kayıptı pusulam.
Paraya kanıp da gelemem oyuna. Cebimde sigaram, yakarım onu da.
Yaparım analiz, hayatı okuma. Atılı bu ruhum derin bir kuyuda. Belki de varırım hayatın sonuna.
Gittim bir doktora, yazdı bir reçete. Dedi "Çok düşünmek hayatı hiç eder.
" Kalem ve peçete, yazılı heceler. Belki de bulurum huzuru Ege'de.
Kafamda delice düşünce bu sıra. Koşarım ama ben varamam huzura. Delice düşünce kafamda şu sıra.
Yürürüm yine de varamam huzura. Varamam huzura ben hiçbir konuda.
Çetin bir savaş bu, sakın ha uyuma. Hasımlar pusuda, kayıptı pusulam. Paraya kanıp da gelemem oyuna.
Cebimde sigaram, yakarım onu da. Yaparım analiz, hayatı okuma.
Atılı bu ruhum derin bir kuyuda. Belki de varırım hayatın sonuna.
Gittim bir doktora, yazdı bir reçete. Dedi "Çok düşünmek hayatı hiç eder. " Kalem ve peçete, yazılı heceler.
Belki de bulurum huzuru Ege'de. Kafamda delice düşünce bu sıra.
Koşarım ama ben varamam huzura. Delice düşünce kafamda şu sıra. Yürürüm yine de varamam huzura.
Varamam huzura ben hiçbir konuda. Çetin bir savaş bu, sakın ha uyuma.
Hasımlar pusuda, kayıptı pusulam. Paraya kanıp da gelemem oyuna.
English translation
Is this a work-like resistance? Time flowed like a river.
Hey! It left a trace inside you like poison, as if my hope had always bled.
Is this always a cry like a dark winter?
Death took my angels. Hey! My wrists got oily.
I cannot find peace in your equation. This is the crazy thought in my head. I run but I cannot reach peace.
Crazy thought in my head right now. I walk but I can't reach peace.
I cannot find peace in any matter. This is a tough battle, don't sleep. Enemies are in wait, my compass was lost.
I can't come into the game just because of the money. I have a cigarette in my pocket, I'll light it too.
I analyze, read life. This soul of mine is thrown into a deep well. Maybe I will reach the end of life.
I went to a doctor and he wrote a prescription. He said, "Thinking too much makes life worth nothing."
" Pen and napkin, written syllables. Maybe I will find peace in the Aegean.
This is the crazy thought in my head. I run but I cannot reach peace. Crazy thought in my head right now.
I walk but I can't reach peace. I cannot find peace in any matter.
This is a tough battle, don't sleep. Enemies are in wait, my compass was lost. I can't come into the game just because of the money.
I have a cigarette in my pocket, I'll light it too. I analyze, read life.
This soul of mine is thrown into a deep well. Maybe I will reach the end of life.
I went to a doctor and he wrote a prescription. He said, "Thinking too much makes life worthless." Pen and napkin, written syllables.
Maybe I will find peace in the Aegean. This is the crazy thought in my head.
I run but I cannot reach peace. Crazy thought in my head right now. I walk but I can't reach peace.
I cannot find peace in any matter. This is a tough battle, don't sleep.
Enemies are in wait, my compass was lost. I can't come into the game just because of the money.