More songs by Mert Çodur
Description
The words sound like frames from an old movie playing in slow motion: photographs, smells, strangers' eyes - everything is painfully familiar, and everything is no longer yours. This is not a sharp quarrel, but chronic melancholy: the habit of throwing yourself into the abyss of strangers' glances, believing in a happy ending, and then waking up on the floor with the feeling that the game ended unfairly.
The music envelops this text softly, like smoke in a movie theater: each word stretches out, as if clinging to the last chance to fix something. And in this viscous sadness there is irony - it seems that everything has long been clear, but the heart still chooses a role in which it can fall, breathe and admire again, even if the object of admiration has turned into an enemy. The result is not just a complaint, but a beautiful chronicle of how love turns into a habit of fighting with a shadow.
Lyrics and music: Mert Çodur
Editing, mixing, and mastering: Kerem Akdağ
Director: Mert Çodur
Director of photography and color: Ekrem Özdemir
Editor: Alperen Denizir
Styling: Irem İnanc
Lyrics and translation
Original
Kim kaybeden, kim derbeder?
Bu son kime yazar, söyle hangimiz güzel?
Film gibi geçer, gözümde hatıran
Resmine bakmak bi' dert, kalbim dudak büzer
Boşuna ben "sen" diye kendimi yerlere fırlattım
Zoruma gidiyor "benim ol" diye resmen yıllandım
O derin bakışın sularında nefessiz kıvrandım
Niye düşmanım oldun? Her zerrene hayrandım
Dayanabilirim sandım
Sensiz yaşanabiliyor sandım
Dizlerimin üzerine çöktüm
Başka bi' boyutta içerime daldım
Dayanabilirim sandım
Sensiz yaşanabiliyor sandım
Dizlerimin üzerine çöktüm
Başka bi' boyutta içerime daldım
Boşuna ben "sen" diye kendimi yerlere fırlattım
Zoruma gidiyor "benim ol" diye resmen yıllandım
O derin bakışın sularında nefessiz kıvrandım
Niye düşmanım oldun? Her zerrene hayrandım
Boşuna ben "sen" diye kendimi yerlere fırlattım
Zoruma gidiyor "benim ol" diye resmen yıllandım
O derin bakışın sularında nefessiz kıvrandım
Niye düşmanım oldun? Her zerrene hayrandım
English translation
Who is the loser, who is the loser?
Who writes this ending? Tell me, which one of us is beautiful?
Your memory passes like a movie in my eyes
Looking at your picture is a pain, my heart purses.
In vain, I threw myself to the ground saying "you"
I'm having a hard time, I've literally grown old saying "be mine"
I writhe breathlessly in the waters of that deep gaze
Why did you become my enemy? I admired every bit of you
I thought I could stand it
I thought it was possible to live without you
I fell on my knees
I dived into another dimension
I thought I could stand it
I thought it was possible to live without you
I fell on my knees
I dived into another dimension
In vain, I threw myself to the ground saying "you"
I'm having a hard time, I've literally grown old saying "be mine"
I writhe breathlessly in the waters of that deep gaze
Why did you become my enemy? I admired every bit of you
In vain, I threw myself to the ground saying "you"
I'm having a hard time, I've literally grown old saying "be mine"
I writhe breathlessly in the waters of that deep gaze
Why did you become my enemy? I admired every bit of you