More songs by ena mori
Description
Here, you can hear that same weariness from constantly putting on a mask: smiles “for the camera,” the usual “everything's fine” and the role of a convenient backdrop. You just want to breathe out and be yourself - not perfect, not photoshopped, but alive. The song is full of quiet requests and timid determination: to stop going around in circles, to stop lying to yourself and those around you. And there is strength in this fragility - as if admitting “I'm hurting” is the first step toward finally feeling better.
Music video by Lunchbox
Director and editor: raliug
Director of photography and colorist: Andrew Kyle Akino
Photographer and assistant producer: Lorenz Torres
Lyrics and translation
Original
If I was
If I was your favourite
Do I
Do I get to stay here without
Tip-toeing, arms reaching the sky?
When will I
When will I become someone
I really want to be so that
I don’t have to lie
and spit in your eyes
I am talking soft
I’m not asking for more
All I ever really want is
To feel a little better about myself
No more pictures
No more fake news
Just me
All I ever really want is
To feel a little better about myself
No more hurting
I just want you to trust me
Trust me
If I ask
If I ask a favor
Do I
Do I get to sit here without
Feeling like I’m sinking inside?
When will I, fall in love with writing?
could I, make something from nothing?
Fixing a habit
Get up from a coffin, could I?
I’m not talking soft
and I’m asking for more
All I ever really want is
To feel a little better about myself
No more pictures
No more fake news
Just me
All I ever really want is
To feel a little better about myself
No more hurting
I just want you to trust me
Trust me
I’m walking in circles
Counting in backwards
(oh, stop with the nonsense baby)
Forgot I was walking in circle
Counting in backwards
(oh stop with the nonsense baby)
And keep on repeating the story I made it up
All in my head once again
All I ever really want is
To feel a little better about myself
No more pictures
No more fake news
Just me
(I’m not asking for more)
All I ever really want is
To feel a little better about myself
No more hurting
I just want you to trust me
All I want is you to trust me